I know you all probably hear this all the time, I just need to get this all of my chest I guess. I've had fibro for years, but just got diagnosed a few months ago... been to every kind of specialist EXCEPT a rheumatologist (finally have an appt. next month with one) in the past few years. I've been on oxycodone for a year and half, I have ADD as well so luckily the pain meds don't knock me out but revive me a bit (thankfully because lately all I do is sleep and sit in a hot bath anyway). I had to stop working over a year ago because of the pain and kept falling asleep at my desk even tho I was up to 8 cups of coffee while at work. My hubby has never understood and just made light of it all like I'm making it all up... that hurts so bad. I finally left him 3 months ago, I have 3 kids and thank you Lord for them, they are my bright spots. 21, 20 and 9 and all so wonderful, I really am blessed I know. My older kids have their own apt and are always over here helping me out. I'm 42 and have always been the 'strong' one... Last year I found out I have cihrossis of the liver (and I don't drink at all how fair is that? lol) I handled that, one day I'll have a transplant and be okay, thats fine. But I've been in a flare up for 2 months now and its kicking my butt. I feel like such a waste of space. literally all I do is sleep and soak in the tub and I STILL hurt all over so bad I cry all the time and IM NOT A CRIER or wasn't anyhow. I feel like such a failure when I can't even take my son to cub scouts or the park anymore. My bills are piling up and I'm just praying my electric stays on.. I just feel like I'm completely falling apart and I don't know what to do. My youngest son was a preemie, born 15 wks early and has high functioning autism and for his first few years, a preemie support group was my salvation, I guess I figured it was time for me to find support on this too. Thanks for listening to me ramble on and complain, it feels good just to get it off my chest.