I'm back from "vacation", such as it was. Most of it was fine, but it ended with me being so depressed I just wanted to die...literally. For several days I was pleading with God to take me home because I didn't want to be here any longer. I won't take my own life because I know that is not what God wants. If He did, I would be living in my Heavenly mansion. Turns out it was a medication problem. My doc is taking me off Cymbalta, and I ran out of Seroquel. That left me with zip anti-depressants. Whew! Did I spiral down fast! I'm back on both meds, and my moods are stabilizing, but I am still fightint the severe depression and anxiety. I'm in therapy to discover why it happened like it did. Duh! Do ya think it could be that I have not had GOOD therapy in over a year? So I'm back. But it might be an off and on thing for a while until I get my equilibrium back. Pray for me, and I'll be here lurking even if I don't post as much as I used to...but I will come back! God Bless.