Well, I had a few days where I came out of my flare (it's been 2+months long) a bit, but it was too good to be true. Yesterday the pain and fatigue were back w a vengeance and I cannot figure out why. I didn't overdo it or do anything strange, but my body and mind feel like they've been beaten with a baseball bat. I also started my period off schedule so I'm sure my pre menopausal hormones have something to do w it. How can this keep happening to me? This is the longest I've ever been so sick. Two wks ago I was sooo depressed and afraid I might end up in the hospital because of it. I've slowly been feeling better mentally (fighting every hour of the day and seeing my therapist), but yesterday it's all back. The anxiety and depr are killing me again. My moods change so quickly, it's scary sometimes. It was my birthday this past Wed and I didn't even feel well enough to go out to dinner. My dh keeps asking when I want to go out, but I'd just rather stay home and order pizza!! This sucks and I'm so tired of it all. Just needed to have a b!tch session here, thanks for listening...I love you guys.