I've been living with FM/CFS and a list of other disorders and I'm afraid I can't hold on any more. I applied for SSD in 2004 and was denied. I applied again and am waiting for ALJ appointment. I was taken by ambulance earlier this month intential overdose, but I don't know if I can keep going, I fantasize and can see myself dangling from a rope. I take pills to make the pain go away, sometimes I can't stop taking them because its the only time I feel at peace. I was just wondering how everyone else is handling living with this life and no longer having the life you had prior to all of this. Never in a million years I ever thought that my life would be this way. Sorry to sound no negative, but just needed a friend who could understand.