Hi y'all. I know I don't post often. I've just been trying to keep my head above water. I don't have internet at home now which is why I don't really get on here much. I was in the hopsital for 2 weeks in october. It was horrible. I think doctors are demons in white coats, sorry but that's my theory after that experience. They put me on midodrine and norpace for my heart condition and practically kicked me out the door though I was still having problems. Trust me, I was more then ready to go home but the way they treated me was just pathetic. A friend of mine had to come to the hospital and practically yell at them to give me some information on why I might still be having problems. I feel like a baby but I"m just tired of this sh*t. My ex is such an *sshole that he never let my child call me even while I was sick in the hospital. He's totally taken advantage of my situation and is trying to shut me out of my baby's life. I try not to hate people but boy is he making it hard. HE wants me to be bitter like he is. All the while yes it is excruciatingly painful but my son is the one who is suffering the most. I really don't know what I"m going to do or whta is going to happen to me in the near future. My small hope is that my writing goes places and I become an accepted author soon. Otherwise I maybe in trouble. I believe I have talent. It's just figuring out where to send my work and what I need to do. What I want to write about as far as a long term project. I'm rambling, sorry. Just so tired and can't think at the moment. Just need to vent I suppose. Sorry to be so depressing, blah.