Sometimes I wish that I never had a dad. My father has been verbally abusive my entire life. I feel like a piece of trash when I try to talk to him. He doesn't listen. He only talks a bunch of non sense that isn't me. All I want to do right now in life is just go to school and that has faded away. I'm not social anymore. I use to run for the college cross-country and that has faded away as well. I'm not motivated, and I cant talk to anyone because I don't have friends that I feel comfortable talking to. My dad and his behavior has made my life a living hell. I'm only 19 and I sometimes feel like I should move out, but I can't. I have nothing. I just don't know what to do because I feel like nobody loves me or cares for me. My sister is always gone working and my mom doesn't understand anything. even though she knows how my dad is, she thinks he has reason for everything. I don't know where to go from here anymore. I feel not wanted by this corrupt family. I don’t know I was happy for a while and now I am back to the feeling sad.