I have been depressed for a week now. I havnt a desire to do much of anything. I feel like I have just lost hope. I know it will pass, but when in a mood like I am in right now, I just don't care about anything. Had three job interviews I could've went to this past week, but didn't, was too depressed to go. Been haveing alot of storms where we live and no sunshine at all, I am wondering if that could be a part of the depression. Lack of sleep too, been staying up late to almost 4 in the morning, then waking up past noon the next day, dragging my butt. I been crying at times, when thinking of all I have lost because of the Fibro. I know its not good to thing on that, its better to look at what you have now in the present, but honestly I do not feel like I have much at all. Honestly--Suicide thoughts have crossed my mind. Taking all my pills at once, thinking it would put myself and my family out of misery. I feel like a cripple, like I of no use to anyone around me, or to myself. I feel like what is there to live for? waking in pain day in and day out. I know there are ways to get better, but honestly, I feel like I have given up, I don't feel like going after the treatments to feel better. Tired, tired of it all.