Hello all, It's been a long time since I wrote anything. But I have been on checking out the posts. Thought I would write as this seems to be the only way that I can express my thoughts and feelings. The past few months have been hard as I have had very few days where I am feeling good. Write now as I write, my body is just sore and especially my upper body feeling "pins and Needley". Whenever I move it hurts as the clothes rub against me. Several times a day I get jabs as if someone stuck a fine needle in me in different spots at different times. If it ain't the legs and knees it is my middle to upper back. if it is not my shoulder area it is my ab muscles. If it is not my ribs it's something else.The brain fog is incredible. My flares are funny as it is not one specific area at one time (Maybe a few areas together at the same time having a party. Thank god I am sleeping for the after party party). Not a day goes by that without something, somewhere on my body hurts. Just before my doctor confirmed FM I was given so many different types of muscle relaxers which do not work for me as well as a few other things. My Rheumi finally put me on Ultram a few months ago which do help alot, but not totally and I am content with having something that somewhat helps. I take 7 a day even though he prescibed me 6 a day. I want so much to be totally comfortable, but having to live with this for awhile I am thankful for something rather than nothing. You see I am the typical male who does not speak about himself in pain as he perceives this as a weakness and will see that others may see this the same way. I have an appointment coming up in a week and I guess I am using this post as sort of a stepping stone and courage to truly express myself to my DR instead of saying I am OK and dealing with it. I guess I am waiting for him to tell me what will help instead of asking (Typical male actions, Forget about asking for directions). Well before I keep ranting on and maybe you have made it this far down, thank you for letting me vent.