in regards to common agent weaponized

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by jen3092, Oct 21, 2002.

  1. jen3092

    jen3092 New Member

    Dear Bubblegum,

    Thanks for the article you posted.. it is not the first I have read about this but it is the most understandable one I have read so far... Imagine my dismay when I read that they had tested the mycloplasma vector through mosquitos in Punta Gorda, Fl. I worked there as a city planner from 1990 to 1996 when I was forced to leave my job due to may inability to do the work and unable to be there every day... I also was involved in the movie(VERY MINIMALLY) I REMEMBER ME/// Kim Snyder(the producer and fellow victim) just happened to contact me to find out if I could help her Identify those people who got CFS in the 50's. I had recently been finding them as I had a high visibiity job and many of the victims recognized my illness as the same as what they had struggled with for over 30 years...I eventually helped Kim get them all together so she could interview them... shortly before that Oslers Web was released and I read with horror about the cdc's visit and inept handeling of the outbreak in Punta Gorda... If you think we have been mistreated you should hear their horror stories... NO ONE BELIEVED THEM ONCE THE CDC LEFT AND THEY WERE TREATED LIKE LAZY DEADBEATS...SUPRIZINGLY MOST OF THEM SURVIVED AND HAVE LED FAIRLY DECENT LIVES DESPITE THIS HORRIBLE ILLNESS...JUST GOES TO SHOW HOW STRONG THE HUMAN SPIRIT AND WILL TO SURVIVE IS ...ESPECIALLY AMONG WOMEN, NATURALLY MOST OF THEM WERE WOMEN, ALTHOUGH THEY TALKED ABOUT A COUPLE OF MEN THEY REFERRED TO IT AS THE THING....
    IT LITERALLY SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME WIN I THINK OF WHAT IS HAPPENING TO SO MANY UNSUSPECTING PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY OUR CHILDREN AND FAMILIES... AND THERE IS NOT ONE DAMN THING WE CAN DO... I INTEND TO PRINT OUT THE WHOLE ARTICLE WHEN I GET MY PRINTER UP AN RUNNING AGAIN...I JUST HAD TO DUMP EVERYTHING AND RESTORE THE DISC NOW MY CD ROM WON'T WORK AND I CAN'T INSTALL MY PRINTER SOFTWARE... IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING IS'NT IT....
    ALSO TO ALL THE OTHER FELLOW SUFFERS I TO AM GOING THROUGH A BIG FLARE AND HAD A CRYING JAG YESTERDAY... SAID I WISHED GOD WOULD JUST TAKE ME HOME THIS IS NOT LIVING ETC... YOU ALL KNOW THE FEELINGS...MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND ACTUALLY HANDLED IT WELL FOR THE FIRST TIME HE JUST LISTENED AND HELD ME.... TODAY HE TALKED TO ME ABOUT HOW I AM FEELING AND WANTED TO KNOW WHAT I THOUGHT ABOUT BEING BIPOLAR....IF HE ONLY KNEW... I ASSURED HIM I AM NOT BIPOLAR BUT PERFECTLY NORMAL UNDER VERY SHITTY CIRCUMSTANCES... I BASICALLY HAVE A POSITIVE ATTITUDE 90% OF THE TIME AND I DEFINITELY SHEILD HIM FROM MOST OF MY DEPRESSING EMOTIONS OR I CERTAINLY TRY TO IF I WAS BIPOLAR HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH ME HE JUST CANNOT HANDLE EXTREME FEELINGS OF ANY SORT....GOD LOVE HIM BUT HE TRYS... I THINK I WILL MAKE HIM GO TO THE SITE HE SUGGESTED AND DO THE QUESTIONAIRE WITH ME .... WELL SORRY FOR WRITING WAY TOO MUCH....HANG IN THERE EVERYONE... TOMMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY

    JEN3092
  2. jen3092

    jen3092 New Member

    Dear Bubblegum,

    Thanks for the article you posted.. it is not the first I have read about this but it is the most understandable one I have read so far... Imagine my dismay when I read that they had tested the mycloplasma vector through mosquitos in Punta Gorda, Fl. I worked there as a city planner from 1990 to 1996 when I was forced to leave my job due to may inability to do the work and unable to be there every day... I also was involved in the movie(VERY MINIMALLY) I REMEMBER ME/// Kim Snyder(the producer and fellow victim) just happened to contact me to find out if I could help her Identify those people who got CFS in the 50's. I had recently been finding them as I had a high visibiity job and many of the victims recognized my illness as the same as what they had struggled with for over 30 years...I eventually helped Kim get them all together so she could interview them... shortly before that Oslers Web was released and I read with horror about the cdc's visit and inept handeling of the outbreak in Punta Gorda... If you think we have been mistreated you should hear their horror stories... NO ONE BELIEVED THEM ONCE THE CDC LEFT AND THEY WERE TREATED LIKE LAZY DEADBEATS...SUPRIZINGLY MOST OF THEM SURVIVED AND HAVE LED FAIRLY DECENT LIVES DESPITE THIS HORRIBLE ILLNESS...JUST GOES TO SHOW HOW STRONG THE HUMAN SPIRIT AND WILL TO SURVIVE IS ...ESPECIALLY AMONG WOMEN, NATURALLY MOST OF THEM WERE WOMEN, ALTHOUGH THEY TALKED ABOUT A COUPLE OF MEN THEY REFERRED TO IT AS THE THING....
    IT LITERALLY SCARES THE CRAP OUT OF ME WIN I THINK OF WHAT IS HAPPENING TO SO MANY UNSUSPECTING PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY OUR CHILDREN AND FAMILIES... AND THERE IS NOT ONE DAMN THING WE CAN DO... I INTEND TO PRINT OUT THE WHOLE ARTICLE WHEN I GET MY PRINTER UP AN RUNNING AGAIN...I JUST HAD TO DUMP EVERYTHING AND RESTORE THE DISC NOW MY CD ROM WON'T WORK AND I CAN'T INSTALL MY PRINTER SOFTWARE... IT'S ALWAYS SOMETHING IS'NT IT....
    ALSO TO ALL THE OTHER FELLOW SUFFERS I TO AM GOING THROUGH A BIG FLARE AND HAD A CRYING JAG YESTERDAY... SAID I WISHED GOD WOULD JUST TAKE ME HOME THIS IS NOT LIVING ETC... YOU ALL KNOW THE FEELINGS...MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND ACTUALLY HANDLED IT WELL FOR THE FIRST TIME HE JUST LISTENED AND HELD ME.... TODAY HE TALKED TO ME ABOUT HOW I AM FEELING AND WANTED TO KNOW WHAT I THOUGHT ABOUT BEING BIPOLAR....IF HE ONLY KNEW... I ASSURED HIM I AM NOT BIPOLAR BUT PERFECTLY NORMAL UNDER VERY SHITTY CIRCUMSTANCES... I BASICALLY HAVE A POSITIVE ATTITUDE 90% OF THE TIME AND I DEFINITELY SHEILD HIM FROM MOST OF MY DEPRESSING EMOTIONS OR I CERTAINLY TRY TO IF I WAS BIPOLAR HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH ME HE JUST CANNOT HANDLE EXTREME FEELINGS OF ANY SORT....GOD LOVE HIM BUT HE TRYS... I THINK I WILL MAKE HIM GO TO THE SITE HE SUGGESTED AND DO THE QUESTIONAIRE WITH ME .... WELL SORRY FOR WRITING WAY TOO MUCH....HANG IN THERE EVERYONE... TOMMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY

    JEN3092
  3. bubblegum

    bubblegum New Member

    First of all I apologize for not replying sooner. Somehow this post snuck past me. What an incredible story. And no need to apologize for writing too much. I think I have finally gotten beyond the angry stage. When I first came across this info. I wanted to tell the world. And the more I talked, the closer I got to realizing that the general public doesnt really want to know this stuff. Only the ones affected want to know. My family thinks that I have become very paranoid. Maybe I am. But if God isn't going to take me home, then I must do what I can to find some answers. I have had no luck with my doctor and most of the specialists either. They all share one opinion in common, that patients claiming to have FMS are problem patients. What they don't understand about me is that I want to find the underlying cause to this DD I am living with. I will continue to research hoping to find all the missing pieces to this extraordinary puzzle that haunts me.
    My condition has finally chased my man away. We have been together since 95, and bestfriends since 1988. He just can;t handle the fatigue. So in the midst of all of this pain, the kids and I are getting ready to move.
    But like you said "Tomorrow is another day"
    Ciao for now
    Sandy