My hubby can really make me cry sometimes. I know he gets so tired of this DD. He doesn't really understand and wish it would just not be there. He acts sometimes like if he treats me like I'm a "normal", then I'll become normal. This morning my knees and ankles felt like they had been beaten with steel pipes. It hurt so bad to stand on my legs. My calves always hurt too. I thought I would collapse. I was in the kitchen trying to make coffee and prepare a lunch for my husband to take to work with him. I was thinking if I just had a stool to sit on that rolled around that I could scoot around the kitchen, getting out the things I needed and not have the pressure on my legs. But, when I mentioned this to my husband and 18 yr old daughter.. they acted disgusted. They said just go back to bed if it was so much trouble. He would just do it himself. They think I want to play like I'm an invalid!!! I get so mad at them i could just beat them up until they hurt so so so bad, so I could say, "now this is how I feel each and every day and I still manage to get everything done". Which includes running the household and managing our lives and raising a 2 yr old baby that my daughter can't seem to do. I'm sorry, I just get so mad at the fact that they take me for granted and just overlook the fact that I am sitting there dying in pain before their very eyes, while I am serving their every need. My husband is good to me though, but it is in spurts, he just keeps hoping he'll wake up and it will be over. For instance, he paid for me a one hour massage. It was heavenly. He was so excited to do something nice for me to make me feel good. He thought he was going to fix my pain. By that night, I asked him to rub my shoulders. He asked me why would I be hurting if I just went to the massage therapist? I tried to tell him that it does make you feel better but it doesn't cure you. He was so angry that he wasted his money. He thought he was really going to fix me. Poor guy, he just doesn't get it. He has read the print outs, but not gone to Dr's with me, because he can't take off work. So, to any of you with husbands who just don't fully get the idea....I understand.