because you have actually reached a point of being a bit better with the medicines your current doc has given you, and you are terribly afraid that another doc will take them away from you? I know this sounds crazy. I get around a lot better than some of you. With the Neurontin I am now taking, in addition to Ativan and Flexeril, my neuropathy is better, even though I am still in quite a bit of pain. I was just reading the post from the Grand Rapids people who are going to homeopath/chiropractors who are helping them. I am 2 hours away from Grand Rapids, and would love to have someone make me feel better. Although I have improved somewhat, I am still very much in pain and crash hard from the hard things I do. But, I went to a different doctor once, and he immediately wanted to take my Ativan away. I didn't go back. I take only a very low dosage, and that and my Flexeril give me a good night's sleep that I don't want to give up! Whenever I don't take them, I sleep well for a few hours, and then do this weird thing where I just keep waking up. A lot! I can get back to sleep, but only to wake up again. I do this for the rest of the night, and I'm pooped the next day. I have no idea how often I awaken, because I am so in and out of sleep all night, but it feels like it is dozens of times. It is extremely draining. When I see how many people struggle to get a decent combination of pills to help them sleep, I am so afraid to lose what I have. Is this unreasonable of me? I was lucky enough to fall onto this combo 6 years ago when I was first diagnosed, and it has worked well. This was NOT without having tried several anti-depressants first, AND Melatonin, and others..... I really would like someone to help make my body well, but not by taking away my sleep meds. My Doc is a good guy, but we're only covering up the things that are wrong, and not really improving them. But I am afraid of what a new doctor will do. Does anyone else struggle with this?