Is it normal for me to be so ittatated and moody?

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by rosemarie, Oct 30, 2006.

  1. rosemarie

    rosemarie Member

    ABout 2 weeks ago my car DIED and I have been home bound since then. Of couse I can always borrow my Mom's car if she is not going any where like work or to her meetings. But then I have to walk to her house that is just over 2 blocks away from my house.
    It takes me about 14 minutes to walk that distance as I have to stop and rest and then start again.

    I have noticed for the past few days that I am really bitxxy and moody. I bite my hubby's head off for not doing what he tells me he is going to do. HE is always putting every one first but me and that sounds so selfish of me.
    SInce I have no car and NO money of my own I am stuck in the house.

    OF couse I could clean it but why? HUbby comes home and takes off the shoes and socks and drops them on the living room floor and that is where they stay as well as his shirts that he hangs on my vaccum.

    And the mail that is his piles up by one of "HIS ROOMS" they both are locked up and I can't get in to clean them or even find dishes that need washing. And it just irratates me greatly and I have been pissed off at him for the dumbest reasons lately.

    I don't know why I feel like this. And get so mad at him for the dumbest reasons.
    But it is driving me nuts and so is he. HE gets to leave the house when he wants and he does all the shopping for food. And he can come and go. But me I am stuck here at home or
    going places with my mom.

    NOt that spending time with my MOm who is 79 is a bad thing but her personiality has changed sicne she was sick in Jan of this year.
    And she is not so fun to be around. AS everyone gets told what to do and how to do it. Things that she has enjoyed all her life suddenly she hates and tells you that she has never liked doing that or seeing that movie every.

    So I really don't want to have her driving as it is bad. So I drive and get told that I am not driving so well either I drive to fast.

    I don't know why I am so cranky . And it really bothers me that I am this way. I hate it that I don't have any money of my own.

    And I hate asking my husband for money to color my hair and then for a hair cut as I really need it and need to look better so I will feel better about me.

    He does not see what I need money for as he " Tells me that he will buy me any thing or everything I want or need" And that is not true even tho he thinks it is.

    I just don't like being so onery all the time and I hate being stuck in the house all day as well.

    Last but not least my daughter told me that she volenteered me to baby sit a puppy that has a broken leg and the dog will be at my mom's house and I just have to lift her out of the pen and help her stand up. I asked how much she weighed and was told about 18 lbs.

    I can't lift much more than that and I am not steady at holding something that big long enough for the dog to do it thing. And I don't want to do this and have said so.

    And I get told well then Grandma will do it and she has a compression fracture and you don't. I am just about at the end of my rope and there is not real reson why I feel this way.
    I have had it and I am going to quit griping now. I am sorry for being so bitcxy and onery. I just don't feel like me now.
    HUGS,
    Rosemarie
  2. PVLady

    PVLady New Member

    I can understand why you are irritated. I would be off the deep end if I had to ask my husband for money, or if there was a locked room in the house - or I could not see all the incoming mail, etc.

    It sounds like very contolling behavior and sort of emotionally abusive to you.

    As respects to your daughter, you need to stand up and let her know you should have been asked before she volunteered you to take care of the puppy. That is called respect - but you need to command it from everyone. I would have said, sorry can't do it - just because I was not asked first.

    If you don't they will continue to walk all over you. I know it is not easy.

    It would be nice if you had a friend you could stay with for a while to have a rest from everything. You are not well yourself, and walking to your mom's is hard.

    Is there a good reason your husband has not had your car fixed.. You cannot be isolated at home with no transportation, no money, etc. It just is not fair or right.

    Sorry for my bluntness, but everyone seems to disregard your feelings. Sometimes you have to make people respect you. If you let them walk all over you, they just continue to do it.

    I know life is not so easy but you deserve better.
  3. homesheba

    homesheba New Member

    it sounds like you
    and i live in the same place with
    the same dh and mom...
    very scary.
    and yes!!
    i am going nuts also and am totally grouchy ....
    towards them both
    but try and hold it in and then
    go drive down the road screaming like a banshee
    to get it out!!!ha ha!!
    not a pretty sight!:)
  4. rosemarie

    rosemarie Member

    I would go t the doctor but the antidepressants that I have taken oonly seem to make this bitxxness worse.And I have a hard time with all antidepressants as they all me me irratable adn cranky as well. So I try to stay away from them.

    But thank you all for you thoughts and concern it mean sso much to me. Thanks you for everything,
    Love,Rosemarie
  5. PianoGirl

    PianoGirl New Member

    Rosemarie,

    I think that being moody is a huge part of having this DD. Your body is doing things you don't understand why it is doing them, you are tired, sore, worn out, of course you are going to have moody days, some more than others.

    As for your husband, he is not being very compassionate towards you or sympathetic towards you having this disease. Stress is a # 1 cause of alot of flare ups and it sounds like you are having way too much stress in your life. I agree with the others, you have the right to be moody after all your husband, daughter, mother, etc put you through.

    You have to find some way to "escape" be it a support group, or something. Can you take a cab somewhere or the city bus? Don't know if these are options for you or not.

    I'm sorry it's so rough on you right now, sometimes people just get to their breaking point and it's hard.

    Take care of yourself,

    Lis
  6. cathugs

    cathugs New Member

    I am sorry you are feeling witchy. I thought for a sec. I was reading about me.

    But I have a possibly nosy question.....Do you ever wonder just what it is that your dh keeps locked in those 2 rooms? you must have less curosity than I.

    I would wait til he left and I would be on those doors
    "like ugiy on an ape.
    ((((huggies))) cathugs