I have suffered from depression for many years and am on medication, yet only when things are absolutely perfect in my life do I feel anywhere near normal. Since that is a rarity, I am constantly struggling to function on a day to day basis. Is this what there is to look forward to the rest of my life? If I don't take medication I can barely find the will to get out of bed, forget actually having to interact with anyone. As it is now, I barely function. If I get stressed I just want to crawl into a hole. I have hypothyroidism and take medication for that as well. I have spoken with my doctor about this, he runs labs to check my thyroid, calls to tell me my thyroid levels are OK, and doesn't address the depression. I have been in therapy off and on over the years and they confirm major depression, co-dependency, discuss how to manage stress, yada yada yada. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want a better quality of life. I remember when I was happy and smiling most of the time. I had fun, was full of energy, and laughed. How do be happy again?