I have been in pain for 13 years it started when I was pregnant. The baby came the pain staid. I have been talked about by family and ex- lovers. They say I not motavatied, that im lazy , faking etc. I have no help. My son is handdicapped. He does what he can to help. My 14 year old daghter is just I dont know what to say about her. On days when I cant get out of bed she stays in bed to. She helps around the house but never finishes her task. which mean I have to noty only clean but finish what she dosnt. I know its hard on my kids to have a sick mom. But I do what ever I can for them. I wont to run away sometimes. I took a little job it lasted for a week and I have been to the emergency room twice for that and now social security is trippin. I,m not supposed to work at all. But I have bills that have to be payed. I just dont know why its so hard to get some help.?