I hope I don't come across in a bad way. First I am 50 years old and don't think I should be such a big baby really. I do not know for sure if I have fibro. I was told a few years back by a nuero he thought I might have myofasical pain syndrome gave me a booklet to read but didn't tell me to come back or prescribe anything. I would give anything to know what is wrong with me. I have alot of pain in my body. I had an MRI last month that showed buldging discs in my neck and lower spine. It might be where the pain is coming from. I also have a inner ear disorder that causes me problems. That is where the the neck and back problems come from. Falling and holding myself in ridge type of stance. Now I feel really like I can't use my legs well and my arm and hand hurt on my right side. I saw a rhuemotologist and all she said is we could do some injections or some steroids. That she felt it was arthrists starting in my hands. I guess it might be some arthritis but it feels more to me like its in my muscles. Things that I have been checked for in ANA which a couple times has come up high 1:640 the past ten years. Doctor says it not really important I guess because its a speckeld pattern. Then I had thyroid checked the T-4 was .9 on a .8 to something range said that was ok I was in the normal range. I am just so tired of trying to find out what has happened to me. I don't get any support from the doctors as to giving me a real diagnosis. I get the feeling that I am always on the boarder of what is normal or not normal so they figure cause no problems by doing nothing. I have seen quite a few doctors and have really run out of people to see. The thing that scares me the most is that I am going downhill and feel like in another 10 years I will be in a convalesant home. I don't drive and can't really get around. I sometimes wish that I could just go to sleep and not wake up so I wouldn't have to go through any more days wondering whats going to happen. I don't sleep much and never have. I get maybe 4 to 6 hours a day. Anyway I know there isn't really anything anyone can do I have done all I can do. I go to the doctors and maybe they are all correct. In time maybe I will show something on testing of some sort to help with diagnosises. Just venting I guess.