I love to be around people and I love the feeling of helping people. But when I look at myself I am disgusted by what I see. As many pills as I take and counseling sessions I go to. I don't know that will ever help. My doctor tells me to lose weight and that will improve my self esteem. I can lose weight slowly but not at the pace that I would like to see. I wonder sometimes why am I here? Do I have a purpose in life? It's so hard. People also look at me and say your 22 what do you have to be depressed about? Thank you sometimes you need to let it all out because not to many people want to listen about another persons problems.