Katemac...

Discussion in 'Spirituality/Worship' started by Mar19, Mar 22, 2006.

  1. Mar19

    Mar19 New Member

    Hey, Mommy! I'm sure I'm not the only person waiting for an update for you, nor the only person praying for you. Please check in and let us know how your doing, okay?

    There are lots of us who care about you and who are holding you up in prayer.

    God bless you,
    Mar
  2. morningsonshine

    morningsonshine New Member

    I see you haven't posted since the 20th, I hope your doing okay, and your hubby is back to help?

    I'm with Mar, let us know how your doing,
    and we will keep praying!

    Blessings,
    Misty
  3. ilovecats94

    ilovecats94 New Member

    I'm so worried about you, please let us know how you are doing and if you have gotten any more medical help for your depression.

    There is help out there, Marie Osmond had it and Brooke Shields had it and they are doing fine now. But if you don't call the docs they won't know you are suffering.

    Prayers and love,
    Faye
    [This Message was Edited on 03/24/2006]
  4. Mar19

    Mar19 New Member

    bumping up for you, Kate. Hope all is well, you're in my prayers.
  5. KateMac329

    KateMac329 New Member

    Hi Mar and everyone,
    Thanks for the thoughts. I got to be honest I am doing pretty horrible.

    My depression is the worst it has ever been.

    I don't know if I already told you guys this but I was indeed diagnosed with that stupid postpartum depression.

    I did get my medicine increased and I have seen my therapist and doctor a couple of times.

    I am trying to keep it together for Landon. He is doing awesome it is just his mommy who isn't doing so hot.

    My husband left last Monday for a business trip and I had a break down.

    That is why I haven't been on the boards.

    Thank goodness I actually reached out for help.

    The days leading up to my husbands trip were really hard for me and my depression only deepened. I was a complete wreck but I was keeping it all inside because I couldn't show him I was being weak. It was when I heard his car drive away I just lost it.

    I actually couldn't speak but emailed a friend just telling her I felt depressed and not right. I didn't really let on how bad things were and almost deleted the email but for some reason (God had something to do with it) I sent the email.

    She called me literally within seconds of my sending it (she works from home) and asked if I was okay and I broke down completely.

    She asked where my husband was and I somehow got out that he had left for a business trip.

    About fifteen minutes later she was with me at my house making me drink something and forcing me to eat. (I hadn't eaten in awhile)

    She had called my husband before she left to come sit with me and told him to come home. He was already a couple hours away by this time but he immediately turned around.

    I was so embarrassed and ashamed! I still am but my husband has been taking really good care of Landon and me. My husband said he felt like things weren't right but said I was being a very good actress so he couldn't really tell how bad things were.

    He took the rest of the week off and took me to my doctors and got me the help I needed. It has been a really rough week but I think I can feel the medicine helping me.

    My doctors wanted me to go in the hospital but I refused. I couldn't leave my husband with our little boy all alone like that. Plus I didn't really feel like I wanted to harm myself, I just felt broken.

    Hubby goes back to work tomorrow and that is going to be hard but I can get through it.

    Thank you so much for thinking of me guys. I am sorry I caused worry. I just haven't been able to function really.

    My flare is still horrendous but I am going to get through it like we all do.

    (((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))

    kate

    P.S. I see that there is a post from Windblade so I am just going to copy this response into her post. Sorry to do that but I can't think enough to write again.

    Sorry all for not being a good friend lately. I promise I will be better to you all!
  6. morningsonshine

    morningsonshine New Member

    It sounds like God did an intervention for you. I think it's great that your friend came over and your husband came back home.
    Please don't feel guilty or weak for that, That is Love!
    God's, and your family's, and all of us here praying for you!
    You may still feel terrible, but your doing the right things, we will keep praying.

    It may suck getting diagnosed with postpartum depression, but now you know what's wrong with your body, and you will get better, hang in there.
    You have alot of people pulling for you.

    I pray that the Lord will shine peace, and joy, into your heart. That you would be healed and the chemicals in your brain would be correctly balanced. Lord, help Kate enjoy her little one and her family.

    God Bless in Jesus's name

    (((HUGS for You and Landon)))))
    [This Message was Edited on 03/27/2006]
    [This Message was Edited on 03/27/2006]
  7. Mar19

    Mar19 New Member

    Oh, sweetie!! I'm so glad that you finally posted. I'll continue to pray for you. I'm happy that you're getting help and support from your dh and friends. when I went thru my PPD I just kept it all inside, I was like a zombie for too long.

    Don't feel ashamed, I know there is a tendency to feel that way, been there, done that, got the t-shirt, it's just not the right way to deal with PPD, or any type of depression. I wish I had been as brave as you when I was going thru all the darkness.

    I've since learned to deal with depression in a healthier manner, but I'd like to see you learn years earlier than I did. You'll be in my heart and in my prayers.

    Give little Landon a kiss from Auntie Mar, ok?

    Love and blessings
    mar

    PS -- post every day or so and keep us updated so we can direct our prayers accordingly, ok?
  8. Mar19

    Mar19 New Member

    Bumping this thread up for you, Kate. How are you and Landon doing??

    Hugz
    Mar
  9. ilovecats94

    ilovecats94 New Member

    Hope you and Landon are doing well. Please let us know when you can.

    Big hugs to you and baby Landon,
    Faye