I posted about the "endocringeologist" I saw last week, and how much I did NOT like him. He ran a bunch of specific hormone/thyroid tests. I was supposed to see the rheumy who referred me to the endo today, but her office called me this morning to reschedule me for Wednesday. I had planned on asking her to get the test results from him and was going to speak with her about this endocrinologist, who I do not like, and did not want to see again. Well, after the phone call from the rheumy's nurse, I got a phone call from the endo's office. They told me I have to come in next week because they have the results of my tests. All the hormone/thyroid, every other test he ran were normal EXCEPT the IGF-1. I was below the lowest on the scale. I had no idea what it was, they told me I would then have to see someone who was the "diabetic counselor". So I made the nurse back up and explain a little to me. She told me this has to do with insulin production and pancreas and to "look it up and do some research before I come next week". She told me to check Somatomedin C, which I did, and that's the adult human growth hormone deficiency. This is really scary. I printed out a 7 page thing online and in addition to confusing/scaring me, it states that the treatment is daily injections of the human growth hormone over a long period, very expensive, and has connections to different cancers?!? I feel so overwhelmed right now, like I could just break down and cry. I know I'm whining, but I've always tried to take care of myself, I don't smoke or drink, I eat well, avoid fried and fatty foods, have been avoiding sugar, try to exercise (in fact worked out regularly for years until recently when it became too painful). My husband, who was a 3 pack a day smoker and had a heart attack 2.5 years ago, went this morning for his annual stress test/EKG, etc. and got his blood test results too. He is still smoking on the sly, and his blood tests were great and he passed all his tests with flying colors, in fact they told him they look better than they ever have. He hasn't exercised in 6 months, he eats a lot of crap, and he's checking out fine, whereas I really TRY to take care of me, and one thing after another keeps turning up. I am on pins and needles right now from worry. And one major thing, actually the bottom line thing I'm stressing over, is insurance coverage. I work for a VERY small company, our rates have always been high, over the last 2 year period they have tripled, and the company is searching for other coverage. I have coverage now, but I'm scared to death that I will become uninsurable. I know there are many here who don't even have insurance, so I shouldn't complain. It just seems like everything I do that should be having a positive effect on me, ends up coming out with a negative report. This IGF-1 thing is mind boggling to me right now and I just can't grasp the implications.