I just don't know how to start. We NEED my income from work and cannot wait for SSD benefits to kick in. L-rd knows how long it'll take, anyway. I cannot be without income! I am SO sick right now and desperately need a very long, if not permanent, break from work. I don't know where to begin. In addition to both CFIDS & FM, I have a long and well-documented history of depression. I don't know if that would "help" my case at all, but I can't afford to go without income for ANY period of time. I'm so desperate for help. I can no onger tolerate being this ill, this fat, and continuing to work through it all. I *might* have a bit of energy to exercise if I weren't busting my ass at an extremely high stress job to pay the bills. "Desperation" is putting it lightly at this point. I am literally hopeless and so ANGRY about what these illnesses have stolen from me. I was going to be an attorney (was accepted to some law schools) and get at least a master's if not a PhD in psychology, to boot. I wanted to do research and to provide legal aid for people with disabilities. All those dreams are gone, never to return. I'm going nowhere. I could've been something big and all that is gone.