hi- I just needed to find someone to talk to who understands what this is like. I have been sick for over as yr.and i think today is my worst day ever. I was diagnosed (reluctantely "who knows..." " no one knows about this.." "whats it matter anyway if I diagnose you cause theres nothing to do for it?") after 10 mo. and then after that diagnosis he decided he didnt want to see me. I am doctorless. I have a psychiatrist but he forgets to show up for appts, then falls asleep all through them so all we do is fight when i see him every three months. i think the worst part is that i wanted to begin scuba diving and rollerblade dancing so i wouldnt be depressed and find i can not exercise without wiping myseldf out for days.I recently started going out with someone who goes to the gym every day rollerblades one entire night of the week and one entire day and stays up till 4-5 every morning. I really like him, but I am worn out and cant figure out after only 1 1/2 months how to tell him i have this. i dont even believe it myself. the people who told me i had it went away ands so it seems bizzarre like a bad dream i remember when i get exhausted. can someone please talk to me?