So I've been treated for depression, GAD, panic disorders, OCD, ADHD and insomnia since I was 5 years old. By the time I was 16 by some miracle everything just went away. I foolishly believed that meant they would not return. For the last 5 years I have been struggling with all the above disorders except, and I'm so thankful, for the OCD. However to make a long depressing had complicating story short I have no living family members, friend's who can't bother to return a phone call and attempting to live off disability in New York is literally painful. Yes I have been on every nedication and attempted every form of treatment up to and as of this August ECT treatments. Which unfortunately had little effect which is gone now anyways. The only medications that have had any impact are klonopib and adderall. Yes I'm fully aware of how horrible benzos are but as its the only medication that keeps me from wanting to self isolate for months at a time the pros outweigh the cons. I'm posting this because I am beginning to isolate yet again, and now that we've attenpted ECT I just don't know what else I can do. Any suggestions that I have not yet tried would be appreciated it. I do see a psychologist twice a month and psychiatrist monthly fwi. They too seem to not know what to do at this point.