I am 46, and even though I have had FM since my early 20's, I have always tried to "ride it out" or ignore it, or just keep pressing on with my life, but it is getting more and more difficult. I seem to be so much more serious nowadays than ever. I don't have patience for stupid, loud, raunchy movies, explicit sex (that seems to be all that is out there nowadays), I don't have patience for "modern technology" either, my brain fog gets in the way of that. I feel more irritable now than ever. I don't like to watch the news because of all the crime, poverty, unemployment, people with no health insurance and sickness, fooding, natural disasters, I could go on and on, but I won't to spare you guys (you know all this anyway, right?) I still like to dress modern and wear jewelry for work, but it is so much more of an effort now and that makes me sad, not sure why. I know I am of the age where menopause will be striking me pretty soon.............but I don't want to think about it because it will depress me, LOL. Besides, after being on medication and gaining weight, my clothes look awful on me, and I have lost my sense of "style" that I used to have I used to laugh so much more, in spite of the pain and fatigue. I used to enjoy going out to dinner with friends so much more, but now, I have to watch my diet, most foods tend to aggravate my FM, foods that I love, unless I eat just a plain organic salad and a small piece of meat, food in restaurants will give me a flare up of my FM in as little as a few hours from eating. That is no fun, LOL. I know I am rambling about this and going from topic to topic, it's just that I am not as "carefree" as I used to be, and it's bothering me a lot. I really don't think this is depression, just age, FM, being in pain and just LIFE and all it's difficulties. Thanks for listening, hugs to all, Chelz.