I figured out tonite how I got sick. Bear with me if you can stand it. I have figured out that I have HTLV 1 or 11, I do not know. This is from a test in 1991. It is a retrovirus that can cause lymphoma and leukemia. It is more prevalent in the Carribean. That is how I know how I acquired it. 25 years ago I was casual friends with a woman...meaning we didn't get together often. Then we both had kids about 3 months apart. We babysat for each other when the other had an appt. Our kids went to the same preschool, took swimming lessons together. Then we both moved. Me to Lakeland Fl, she to Texas (we lived in Orlando). We both started having panic attacks, a couple of years later we were no longer in contact but a mutual friend told us that she was sick. I felt too sick to cheer anyone up but one Sunday afternoon found the energy to call her. By then she and family had moved to Virginia. We had the same symptoms. Tachycardia, fatigue, etc, etc. She told Her doc knew what was wrong with her and did the EBV test. She told me to ask for that and it came back abnormal. Anyway, now we know it is more than ebv. But the first thing she asked after we figured out we had the same thing. "Did you give it to me, or did I give it to you?". I said I don't know how I could have gotten anything. Then she told me. They had lived in the Carribean and her husband got these terrible boils repeatedly. HTLV is more common in the Carribean. A couple of years she developed Lymphoma. Went through chemo and bone marrow transplant and has had no recurrence. I saw my uncle I had not seen in 15 years. Within a few years he was dead of lymphoma and my cousin (his daughter) on disability with FM. My friend's son has FM, her daughter had a mild case of CFS and recovered. My twin had a 6 year case of CFS and recovered. No treatment for HTLV that I know of. Well, now I know. . The only thing that I can take comfort in is that it seems that since I have taken Transfer Factor, I can think of no one that I know who has gotten sick. That's a relief. (((hugs))) Friends, cause I need it right now. I'll be ok though...we are tough. We started out tough or learned to be. I don't feel like "why me"...stuff just happens. It is cool down here! I had to wear a jacket today. Tomorrow we might have the heat on...does make it feel like Christmas is coming.