Im really at a very dark and low point as usual. Im sure the sleep deprivation and having no Me-Time, and taking on more work isnt helping my health any...mental or physical. Im tired of crying so much lately...everything is very over-whelming to me even something as simple as running to the store for milk. The kids crazy schedules with sports and all the extra "family" activites EVERY weekend like weddings, baby showers, birthdays etc....all so overwhelming to me. Sometimes I just want the world to stop moving for one second but it all seems in fast foward. Ive been praying in the morning as I drive to my job to please let the day end fast...I pray when I TRY to go to bed at night for the night to S T R E T C H as much as it can so I can finally get sleep and the next momment after that I hear the alarm go off... The first thought in my head when I open my eyes in the morning is "OH MY GOD HOW WILL I GET THRU ANOTHER DAY......"....it actually takes my breath away thinking about it. Please someone say a prayer for me. I feel like Im going insane...there are times especially lately that I am so exhausted that I wish "something" would occur to me that would force me to have to stay in bed for a few days (weeks maybe even LOL!) so I can have a break from all this and get some rest. I feel so alone again.... Im tired of crying.... And when Im this tired and exhausted and in pain and cant function, I feel like such a failure for not being "Super" Woman. Why cant I just be able to juggle like some super moms/wives and do it with a smile on my face and with ease? Everything is such a struggle for me....I just want to be normal!!! Im very angry and resentful that I am not. Sorry for complaining. I need so badly to talk to someone...I feel so alone....even when my hubby tried to get close to me or talk to me....I STILL feel very isolated and alone.