Got a call last night from representive from my ltd insur. that is paying me that they are in area and coming by to visit with me? Scary and nervous why! i can't afford to lose my benefits! Is he to look at me and make judgement as to my illness and abilities? I was just turned down fro ssi said i am being treated and being contolled, fm and lupus. I wished is was controlled enough where i felt human and me again so i could manage to go back to the real world! having very frustrating week!