Is it me or has anyone noticed that those that seem to suffer with Lupus are generally fair skinned? Not all but the majority from the research I have been doing? I'm pretty new to these boards and I have a strong feeling that I am going to be diagnosed with Lupus on Thursday. I'm scared to death and for the first time once I saw the right DR and 38 tests later I will have a diagnosis. Is it normal to feel so angry at our medical profession? At my age and all the years of suffering and loss I have just gone to see a Rheumy. The DR. was a bit stunned himself and seemed as if he was shaming the medical community for missing all of these symptoms. I'm so mad that I am going to find out what my rights are. I find my emotions jumping all over the place. Mostly I'm scared of what would happen to my daughter should something happen to me. I know my son would be loved and cared for but my daughter will end up in the hands of a sociopath.