It's been awhile since I've updated you guys on my quest to become a kids/tweens fitness instructor. For those who don't know about me, I DO have fibromyalgia. Yes, it is possible to have fibromyalgia and want to be a fitness instructor, lol. And no it doesn't mean that I just must have no idea what real fibro pain is like because if I did I wouldn't be chasing my goal. Sorry if I sound defensive, I just get tired of the few on this board who insist on insisting that no one with a "life" could possibly be in a more pitiful state of pitifulness than they are. Three or four days a week I come home and curl up on the couch in fetal position and cry from the pain until the tears release enough serotonin to lift me back into feeling like I can get up and continue my day. But I figure if I'm going to be in pain anyway, then I'm going to be in pain AND do what I love. I remember letting you guys know that I took my AFAA primary group fitness instructor certification exam in September, but I can't remember if I let you know I passed (hello fibrofog? lol) But anyway, I did pass, and I've been spending all of this time trying to find a place to get my foot in the door, and as you know, it's a rough economy out there. But on Monday I will be assisting on a trial basis to teach a FitKids class at a YMCA here in town, and if it works out, I have been asked to go ahead and apply for the position. It will be very part time, and I will be teaching children's fitness programs, which is exactly what I want to do. I may even be allowed over the next few months to help design a fitness program for the afterschool childwatch kids. Please cross your fingers for me, or say a prayer (if you're spiritual that way--I would really appreciate it). This is the beginning for me, I think. I would also eventually like to teach classes for those with Fibro, RA etc., and other things that would allow them to work at a slower aerobic pace and do strength training with stretchy bands that is tailored to their needs. I don't post here much anymore because I guess I feel like I don't fit in anymore. I know there are some people with fibro who are truly disabled by this stupid disease. And I can feel mine getting worse every year. But I'm not there yet. I need to find a place to talk about how to deal with the pain of driving when you've GOT to drive daily to pick your kids up from school. Just for example. Or how to take care of your preschooler when you're having a really, really bad fatigue day and she wants to play Littlest Pet Shop and you can't keep your eyes open. It's not like I can retire and take disability from being a mother of three young children. And I hope you'll forgive me if this sounds judgemental because I don't mean it to be, it's just a personal observation. . .when my kids are out of school for three day weekends, or Christmas break, and I DO have time to rest a lot and be home a lot, I find that it's actually much more painful to lie down and sit down a lot than to keep moving, not to mention that while I'm easily overwhelmed by too much interaction, several days in a row without ANY outside interaction quickly spiral into depression. I know this is the opposite of what many of you on the board experience. So, again, it kind of makes me feel out of place and not sure what/when/whether to post frequently or not. Anyway, just wanted to send out a quick update, and thank you guys for the interesting and informative articles that so many of you take the time to post. I read all of them, and I am so grateful for them!