Please forgive me for being so stupid. I don't understand the explanations of the process, have mostly no clue what the substances being discussed are and, as always, have no money tree growing in the back yard. I have to depend on Lake County CA drs who will accept MediCare/MedicAid and have yet to find one who knows what to do for cfs/me. Current dr, when I said "myalgic encephalopathy" in his presence, didn't know what it is. I know because he said "What's THAT?" That's not all. He doesn't know what Methylation is, either. This is the man who, during the I Need A New Dr appt when I interviewed him as to whether he had any cfs patients, seems to have lied when he said "Yes." He also lied about not having the I'm God And You Aren't (IGAYA) attitude. He won't talk with me about treatment, just writes up another order for yet more pills. At this moment there are seven prescribed drugs in my cupboard: Soma 500mg Instructions: Take one at bedtime. Percocet 5-325 Instructions: Take 4 per day as needed for pain. Restoril 30mg Instructions: Take one at bedtime. Somnote 500mg Instructions: Take one at bedtime. Benadryl 50mg Instructions: Take four per day as needed for sinus. Valium 15mg Instructions: Take one & a half per day. Maxzide 75-50 (no mg or mcg words) Instructions: Take one & a half per day. Two of those above, Soma and Somnote, were issued together despite my protests; I don't know which one is causing some very odd effects. He refuses to treat the swollen lymphs. Won't even talk about it. So I have PAIN in 4 lymphs. When I ask him to look at my raw throat with sinus guck sliding down it, all he says is "Wow your spit is really thick." Duh. Appts are all set for as early in the morning as possible, so I haven't gulped down half a gallon of water by the time he sees me. He claims I don't have a fever because my temp is lower than the supposed "normal" of 98.6. My gosh if my temp went that high I'd be in bigger trouble than I already am. When I try to talk with him about insomnia, pain, agitation, anxiety he goes into an attitude of "Aha! Another Lake County junkie, here to get Drugs with a capital "D." Getting to a new dr, which I'd love to do, is not possible. This guy is the bottom of the barrel. I feel free to say that since I check regularly with local medical authority (quote: I am calling to ask if there is a dr in Lake County who understands and can treat Chronic Fatigue); the most recent attempt netted three names. I called each one. Apparently the drs don't tell the phone answerers much since each call resulted in "No, dr doesn't have any Chronic Fatigue patients." Seems to me if these people really did know anything about what to do with/for this d'd, they'd have at least a couple patients who have the illness. When I win the lottery I'll go to wherever the methylation process is used. Then maybe I'll get to understand what it is. Having slogged through tons of posts about it, all I got was more exhausted, confused, frustrated. I do know there are lots of people here on the board who are concerned and want to help. To them I say Thank You Very Much. It's a pity I can't find an expert in any dr's office. In addition to hopefully getting my stupidity forgiven, I also hope venting is forgiven. Lea.