So I went back to work last week. It really hasn't been too bad. I only worked 1 1/2 days, and then had the long weekend off, so that made it easier. Everyone was really cool and seemed happy to have me back. I fell right back into the swing of things on the first day. Plus, no one did my work (well most of it) while I was gone, so I am sooooooo busy...it just makes the days fly right by!! It was hard leaving my baby that first day though. Since I have done it before, I knew how heart-wrenching it was going to be. But that morning, she just looked at me and gave me a little smile...for some reason, that smile made me feel like it would be ok. And it was. I call my sitter almost every hour just to see if she's ok (I'm glad she doesn't mind). Everything has been going really good there. Her daughter lives at home, so she helps out a lot with the baby, because she does have other kids she watches. And they are like family to me...so I know she is in good hands. Well, of COURSE I ended up getting bronchitis the NIGHT BEFORE I HAD TO RETURN TO WORK! omg...I was AWFUL!! For 3-4 nights straight, I was just coughing ALL NIGHT! I FINALLY got antibiotics, and I feel much better. But my 4 y/o is now coughing, and the other night my lo sounded a little stuffed up!! I am PRAYING she doesn't get sick! This weekend I am having my daughter's 4th b-day party so I am so busy. Plus the boys have football practice every night, and I have been running around at night after that going to stores to get everything for the party. I hope I can pull this all off! Plus my mom comes home from the hospital tomorrow (she needs a ride and she needs her dog picked up), daughter has ballet, and son has football...and I am having the party in the afternoon! It's so crazy! But it does feel good to be back to myself, pretty much. Anyway, my baby has been really good too at night...she goes to sleep around 11 (my bedtime!) then gets up around 4 then goes right back to sleep. So that has helped me too. You know, I really didn't think I could handle all of this...I thought I would just fall apart - taking care of four kids and getting them to day care and then going to work all day. Then coming home and running around like crazy and then doing homework, ect ect...but you know what? I did it. Not perfectly, but I did it. And I am ok. And I did it being sick. And I am still doing it. I am a lot stronger than I thought I was...and I have developed a new sense of pride in myself. Am I the best mom in the world? No...but I am doing my best, and that is all they need from me now. Are there moments when I think I will just collapse? Sure...but I don't. On the other hand....let's see how I am feeling after this weekend. LOL.