I am trying to be the best wife that I can be and it is hard to let him go. He is so angry. He is angry all the time . He gets angry at things I dont even understand. It is like living with a person witha terminal illnes with no light at the end of the tunnel. He will not go back to the doctor. We "I" found a Dr that specializes inFMS and he was better 2 days after the visit. He was palced on antideppresants Lexpro and I think they are either not working or either they are making him more depressed. I am trying to keep the focus on myself and Christ. I cant control this or him. It is so hard to see the one you love dissapear. He has a different personality. He is my husband and I love him but if he wants to go I am not being ugly or holding him here. He want to get an apartment. He gives so many reasons and none of them really make since. I know hes not having an affair...he didnt even get out of bed Monday. Boy I feel better now. Thanks for listening. Please pray for me that I will be a loving, not controling, compasionate, giving wife. Pray that the Lord helps me with the intentions of my heart. I need courage...This is the second marriage... My first husband left'...he was alcoholic. Struggling with codepenency and FMS/CF is very similar to the struggle with alcoholism. I hope that I learned the lessons that I was to learn with the failure of my first marriage. God is God and I am not. Arn't we glad!!!