This has been a bad week. Our daughter became a grandma for the first time Aug. 17. This is our first great-grandchild. Our daughter wanted to stay for a week with her adorable Arabella and help take care of her but her daddy took 2 weeks vacation. This was to be their "time alone and as a family." Our daughter cried for 2 days and I don't blame her. Our sons, who live with their families about 120 mi. from us have not been here since Feb.!! There is no reason - except busy with grown kids, vacations, many of them, the lake, etc. Tbree of the grandchildren have not been here (home) for 5 years. The other 3 have not been here in over a yr. One daughter-in-law has been 1 time in 5 yrs., the other not since last Dec. It breaks my heart. All I can ask is "why?". We have always been a close family, that is, when i entertained them all. Then today, our granddaughter called her mom and said that her hubby was going back to work Wed. and she could come on Tues. eve and go home Fri. so they would be alone all weekend! On their website, today's entry, said "we will keep on a schedule, no matter if we have guests or travel. That means all of us are not welcome on the weekend!! Then, my hubby still has not accepted FMS real well. If I say I hurt, his answer, "Wish I could do something". I have said over and over that there is nothing - all I ask when i say I hurt is a "sorry", "what can I do?", "may I rub your back?" etc. Nope!!! So now my answer, if and WHEN he asks anything, I always say "Fine". I have been in tears already once this week - I fell when outside trimming and hit my head on the wall of the house. Hard time getting up. No big deal I guess and I was in tears over everything. Today I said I wondered it anyone really cared about how i felt. Yes, it was the wrong thing to say. he got mad, mad, and it ended in another argument. I begged for him to please no act that way about my pain as I was crying again. He said it he felt that way, he would sit down and be quiet. i left the room and I cried and cried at the computer. I have been her for over 2 hours, just looking at the baby's pictures and reading and looking at things. He finally turned the AC's on. It was well over 81 and I was so hot! We have argument after argument about things that seem to stem from FMS. I have been is such hideous pain today - I grocery shopped yesterday with an electric cart which hurts my hands and wrists soooo bad. Then I fill the trunk, we come home, I carry in 2 handsful, get my folding grocery cart, fill it and try to get it in the house. My arms and everything hurts so bad after that. Today I went for coffee with friends, then went into our wonderful gift shop for their sale. I was so light-headed, both knees hurt so bad that I was afraid of falling and I was just miserable. Hubby has a leg prothesis. Last winter and spring I spent over 9 wks. taking him around i a wheelchair, lifting all 55 lbs. of it in and out of trunk 4-8 times a day. bandaging the stump that had a wound on it and doing it very single night. Then since then, I have to use a pumice stone on it every other night before we go to bed. He is on a nebulizer as he absolutely refuses toi completely stop smoking. He has a rash on his back that comes and goes - i put med. on it at night. The Dr. cut his big toe when he cut his toenail so I bandage it every night. I keep thinking, "Please help me, even if it is to rub my feet, my back or help me.l I am sorry. I hzve "cried" and "vented" enough for today --- and maybe even more! Thanks for letting me "talk". There has be to someone as kids don't pay any attention to it. Love you all and Gentle Hugs.