I just wanted to let you all know how much I love you and miss you and I haven't lost my desire to be here. Things are sort of rough right now, and I have more to do than I have time. I had to go as a walk in patient last night to my clinic, my abdomen has been swollen and painful on the right upper side. I suspect it's my gall bladder, and they are scheduling an ultrasound. I have also been very wobbly, and tripping over things, and have fallen down twice. I think it's the meds. Michael isn't feeling too well himself, and I had to write to our Congresswoman to see if she could help him get the medical care he needs without having to wait 8-9 months for appointments. Someone is assigned from her office to do that. I have already missed 5 days of classes due to fibro, nausea etc. My teachers are patient, but I am not learning what I need to, and by all rights they could drop me from my classes, which would mean that I will lose all finacial aid, and payment on student loans would come due immediately. Please pray my instructors will hang in there with me. I left the doctors office in tears last night, I am tired of taking meds, and doctors visits, and testing etc etc. I am in the "hearing phase" of the disability, I don't have a date for it yet. I have been tracking down differnt physical therapy clinics I was seen in when I fell and am ordering medical records. This is so costly, and I am now paying so much for meds and visits that it is getting hard to keep up. Poor Michael, he just keeps trying to keep on going. I can't say I am depressed, but my battery is really low. I am in a lot of discomfort and sometimes out right pain and it's more uphill than in previous months. I need a good faith injection.... Please hold me up in prayer, and Michael too...I'm losing a round or two here, but I know the battle is won! Thank you and I recieve it...I receive it.... Hugs. Takesha I don't want to post without adding a little good news. I now have a bed that I can sleep on and a fiber filled, mattress cover that is soft and cushy and a big heating pad that is helping. Also, Michael and I had a real outing last saturday and we went to the flea market. We stopped about a quater of the way thru to rest, and kept on going. Of course, just getting dressed and out the door almost did us in and we just about didnt go, but even though we didn't get to see everything due to lack of energy we finally got to go. Michael who calls me on his lunch and breaks everyday, thanked me for a wonderful time for three days straight in a row. I laughed because when he calls he is sitting in the break room at walmart, and it's a busy place...they must have all thought "he doesn't get out much does he? Since he was so excited about a simple flea market...and oh yes...I have lost 5 whole pounds! Life is God and God is Great. The bumps in the road aren't too cool though.