Sorry I've been gone for so long, I've been lurking for a while, I just haven't had the energy to post. Life is kind of in slow-mo for me right now, and I've been feeling really negative so I don't want to just come and complain... I just need some advice, you guys have been so helpful before, I would really appreciate some help now My dr hasn't filled my rx for my Duragesic patches for a month now, I just keep getting bounced around between the pharmacy and the dr's office... I'm tired with fighting to get my rx filled every two weeks, going through withdrawls constantly really gets to me... I'm totally detoxed, so I don't want to start up on them again. I'm TRYING to get in to see my dr. and tell him this, but we're having problems with our phone again, so it's impossible to talk to my dr or his nurse... My mom is going to call on Monday and make me an appointment. I haven't heard from the pain clinic either! I was hoping to get started on the treatment before school started again, but school starts in 2 1/2 weeks. I'm doomed to spend another miserable year barely sqeaking by, which scares the heck out of me because it's my last year here, and I need to pull my GPA back up to AT LEAST a 3.7 if I want to get the help I need as far as grants ect... I'm just taking Lorcet right now, I'm supposed to take 4 a day, but since it's been my only pain med I've been taking 6-8 a day at least, sometimes more, just to keep myself from crying in pain all day! I'm still in major pain, but they dampen it enough for me to function, sort of... Has anyone else gone off the patches? I was on 75 mcg, and it wasn't really helping all that much, I was taking the max of Lorcet a day on top of them... I was wondering what kind of meds I should ask for instead. I've tried to go without narcotic pain meds, but I just can't do it... I haven't had a pain free day in almost 2 years now... I've been sleeping all day for the past month... I don't usually get out of bed until 4-5 pm and then I usually go back to bed by 10... I'm missing the entire summer, and spending such little time with my kids I feel awful! I'm wondering how I'm going to make it in school since I can't even take care of the small things at home... I feel so miserable, and that's just making my depression worse and worse... I haven't left my house in two weeks, I've gotten out of my pjs once and I just don't have the energy to do it... I've been going to the dentist on a weekly basis, I just had 2 teeth pulled at my last appt so I won't go again until next Thursday, that's the only time I go out! I would like to go for walks, go to the store, take my kids to the library or the park, but I just can't force myself to do it... Yesterday I went outside for a half hour, just to sit in the grass and watch the kids play, and it felt like I ran a marathon... I'm so sorry for whining... I could go on like this for pages... I'm just at the end of my rope! I've tried to keep this DD from taking over my life, but now it seems like I don't have a life.... all I do is sleep, or lay on the couch in pain. I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!!! My body is falling apart, I'm losing my hair, my skin is awful, and I'm just not taking care of myself the way I used to... I've tried making a schedule to follow, something I used to do all the time. Giving myself time for exercise, rest, cleaning, ect, but all I did was look at it and cry... I took it down because all it did was upset me... Can you guys let me know what has helped you? Has anyone else been in this hole I'm in? What can I ask my doctor? What can I do to get myself moving again?