I don't know where to turn. I'm 48 and have been going slowly downhill for 7 years. My pain level has risen to the point where I am not enjoying much of anything and my DH, bless his heart, does not have a clue what it is like to feel like crap just about ALL the time. I try not to complain because I know he's tired of hearing it. So, I hold off until I really need some sympathy, but I always feel worse after I say something because it's like he's just not interested or something. I'm sure it's just that he doesn't know what to say. I tried to talk to him tonight and he listened for a minute and then changed the subject. He has no idea how difficult it is for me to get through the day. I don't like talking to my friends about it either. Don't have many anyway. I should probably go to a therapist. Does anyone here see one? Does it help? If it wasn't for celexa I'd still be fantasizing about the day my kids are grown so I could off myself. I'll probably try to talk my Dr. into putting me on prednisone long term again. 15 mg a day helps me a lot. My sholder and hip pain pretty much go away and it helps with the spine pain and all over pain too. Damn the side effects, I need help. Well, thanks to anyone who took the time to read this. At least I know you understand and that you can probably empathise. God Bless you and help you find comfort.