Needing divine intervention, sil vous plais!

Discussion in 'Spirituality/Worship' started by CreateHope, May 25, 2004.

  1. CreateHope

    CreateHope New Member

    I just had a ton of blood work done yesterday.

    I'm terrified of finding out the results. I've been too sick to get to church as often as I really want to, and for me praying at home just doesn't feel the same all the time.

    I know God understands what I'm going through, but I sure don't, most of the time!

    I have Lyme disease, Fibro and Chronic Fatigue. I am fighting so hard to keep well. I'm so exhausted from the fight.

    I need my blood work to PROVE that I'm on the right track with my food allergies, thyroid, and host of other medical conditions.

    I thought about posting on the other boards, when I realized what I need is PRAYER from people who get what I'm going through!

    I know prayers don't always get answered the way I want them too, so if my bloodwork comes back resulting that I'm sicker than what I've thought, I'll really need God's help in coping with it, more now than ever!

    Terrified,
    CreateHope
  2. PrayerWarrior316

    PrayerWarrior316 New Member

    I'm so sorry that you are going through so much, I will certainly be praying that you start feeling better soon and that your bloodwork results come back with good results.

    Blessings, Judy <a href='http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb008' target='_blank'><img src='http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/17/17_1_22.gif' border=0></a>
  3. Sandyz

    Sandyz New Member

    We certainly understand how you feel. IT is so hard to keep fighting all this with no end in site. But, we do what we have to to survive.

    I pray for better days ahead very soon for you and all of the rest of us also. Praying that your blood work comes back ok and you start feeling better. I have thyroid problems too and just started on some thyroid meds. They give me more energy which helps alot.

    Good luck with everything.
    Sandy
  4. CreateHope

    CreateHope New Member

    Judy and Sandy. I will keep you posted on what happens. I made it to church today. The pain flares were bad, but they've been worse. I'm just thankful I was able to go.

    I don't know how long these blood work results will take...it may be a week...I'm not so good at being patient, especially when I feel so icky.
  5. CreateHope

    CreateHope New Member

    Still no answers. Pain very bad today. still functioning.

    Does anyone else just manage to go to church and eek out "God please help me?"

    I feel so unfocused and not cognitive. It's a wonder I can drive...maybe I shouldn't be right now.
  6. Sandyz

    Sandyz New Member

    I`m still praying for you and hope your feeling better soon and that your bloodwork comes back fine. I know what you mean about the cognitive being bad, Mine is so bad too. I can drive yet but I really have to concentrate on it.

    I had to go to town twice today and its a 40 mile trip there and back. The kids had baseball practice today and vacation bible school tonite. I love living in the country but its a lot of work getting the kids to their activities.

    Let us know how it goes.

    Sandy
    [This Message was Edited on 05/27/2004]
  7. dash

    dash New Member

    Dear Lord, I ask that it may be well with CreateHope in body, mind and spirit. I ask that she may rest in You as she awaits her test results.

    Help her, Lord, to cope with these multiple diseases and health problems.

    Give her hope of a better future, and confidence that You always hear her and are with her in all situations.

    In Jesus' name I pray,
    Della

  8. NewEnglander

    NewEnglander New Member

    I am praying for your healing and that you will feel the Lords presense in your life more then ever now.

    Please let us know the results of your bloodwork so we know you are okay

    Love Lisa
  9. CreateHope

    CreateHope New Member

    Friday afternoon I found out my thyroid medication was being adjusted again. I haven't seen the actual numbers for myself yet, so I'm scared this doctor will mess up the dosage again (not being an expert in chronic illnesses).

    Saturday night I was hit with a migraine really bad. I thought I could cope with it. Then the pain went to the back of my head like a bullet and traveled down the left side of my neck and arm and leg.

    I have a fairly good pain tolerance, but I was beginning to lose my speech.

    I called a nurse friend with Fibro and she recommended the hospital right away. I just needed to know if it was Fibro/CFS/Lyme pain, or something more serious. I hate the emergency room!!!

    My Mom took me to the hospital right away, and I had a heart test, a cat scan and an MRI. No stroke, no heart attack, no tumors...nothing. (Yay, but what's wrong with me? The doctor seemed baffled! And I was in too much pain to be cognitive!)

    I was supposed to be admitted overnight for observation, but after 7 hours of being there, and having all the tests come back negative, I begged my Mom to take me home. So she did. If I didn't have such horrible allergies to foods and medications, and if I didn't require essential enzymes to process anything I put in my mouth, then I probably would've stayed. It was still a difficult decision to make, and the doctor had left, so I couldn't even consult with him first, which made me feel like a truant kid for just leaving.

    Now I will need to see a neuroligist, as the doctor recommended, to rule out MS and other stuff...PANIC!

    Has anyone ever seen a neruologist? What can they do for me?

    It's like it was all a really bad dream. I'm still weak on my left side, but yesterday (Sunday) it wasn't as bad. The migraine hit me again in church today, but I didn't lose my left side completely.

    I'm really scared. I just want to ignore the whole thing, but I can't. Several months ago, I swore I'd never go to the ER again! I bite my words!

    It's not that the people weren't nice, and they ran all the tests and stuff, I just don't want to entertain the idea that I might be sicker than what I already am! When does this end?!

    My Mom and I prayed together at the ER (well, I mumbled and she prayed)...and I remember thinking, when do I call a priest?...am I going to die?

    And my spiritual director is out of state for a couple of weeks. I really need the guidance.

    Can you guys help fill the gap, please? Reading your gentle messages and prayers, calms me. I know I'm not just alone in suffering, but that there are others out there who rely on God as strongly I do. (no matter how "crazy" things get!)
    CreateHope
    [This Message was Edited on 05/31/2004]
  10. Montysmum

    Montysmum New Member

    What an awful experience, I do hope you are beginning to feel a little better now.
    It must have been very frightening for you, I hope the Neurologist will see you soon & put your mind at rest.
    You have so many problems to contend with, life is certainly a battle for you, my heart goes out for you, & I pray you will get some answers to this latest hassle really quickly.
    I will certainly pray God will give you His Peace to cope with whatever this is.
    Linda.
  11. CreateHope

    CreateHope New Member

    Linda, and everybody...
    Pain was so bad last night, was still numb on left side and having migraines, too sick to go online, but I thought of all of you, and tried to keep the faith...
    Not so bad painwise tonight.

    I have the results of my bloodwork, and indeed my thryoid is WAY off, and my doctor increased my T-4, not my T-3, which was (according to my holistic practioner) way too low, which means I'm not digesting anything!

    I'm mailing her the rest of my test results, and the ones from the hospital ER, that my Mom took me to pick up today. My practioner will consult with the doctors in her clinic and get my thyroid straightened out again, hopefully.

    I was so thankful that I could reach her by phone. She's so hard to get ahold of. She sees patients back to back until 7 pm! People with and without FM and other chronic illnesses! Plus she's sick today too!

    She thinks this migraine/left side numbness thing that landed me in the ER could be Bell's Palsy acting up (again) or nuropathy caused by my insulin resistance.

    I'll still go see a Nurologist...hopefully after I get a new primary care doctor for a referral. My PCP treats me badly. My Mom now wishes he has what I have, so he'd have some compassion!

    I don't know how you Mom's can be sick and still take care of your families...I can barely take care of me. It feels like one step forward and five million backwards.

    I'm only 33. When does this end?
    CreateHope
  12. monkeykat

    monkeykat Member

    Hi CreateHope,
    I am so sorry you are suffering so much. I am also suffering very much but I won't share there here. I've been meditating on them and thanking God that he is not a liar. He is faithful when we are faithless. I hope they inspire your faith also.

    Jehovah Shammah: The Lord is Present (made nigh by the blood of Christ)
    Jehovah Shalom: The Lord is our Peace (the chastisement of our peace was upon him)
    Jehovah Ra-ah: The Lord is my Shepherd (he became our shepherd by giving his life for the sheep&#8230;part of atonement)
    Jehovah Jireh: The Lord will Provide (the Lord himself was the offering provided on Calvary)
    Jehovah Nissi: The Lord our Banner or Victor (by spoiling principalities and powers on the cross)
    Jehovah Tsidkenu: The Lord our Righteousness (He opened the way for every sinner to receive the gift of righteousness)
    Jehovah Rapha: I am the Lord that Healeth thee or The Lord our Physician (This is also in the atonement&#8230;for he himself took our infirmities and bare our sicknesses)

    Psalm 23 gives us a picture of these same covenant names:

    The Lord is my shepherd,
    I shall not want.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures,
    He leads me beside still waters.
    He restores my soul;
    He leads me in paths of righteousness
    for His name&#8217;s sake.

    Yea, though I walk through the valley
    of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil;
    For you are with me;
    your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

    You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies;
    You anoint my head with oil,
    my cup runs over.
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
    All the days of my life;
    And I will dwell in the house
    of the Lord forever.

    You are in my prayers today:)
    Monkeykat
  13. grge

    grge New Member

    Our God is a loving God I pray that He will manifest that love to you.

    When I am down or in pain I "talk" to God I don't have the energy and sometimes the ability to pray in a formal way, so I talk.

    My conversations with Him relax me, ease my pain and give me His gift of love and comfort.

    I don't particularly pray about the pain or the disease, I just spend my prayer time or talking time telling Him how much I love Him and thanking Him for his many blessings.

    Some of the time it's about thanking Him for the bluebird I saw, or the rainbow after a storm and I find that by concentrating on the good and wonderful gifts given to me that as I focus on a prayer of gratitude my pain receeds,
    my spirits are lifted and I thank God for the peace and serenity He bestows on me.

    Please do not let terror define you, give your fears to God and He will always see you through.

    Praying for you
    Grge
  14. sunflowergirl

    sunflowergirl Active Member

    I'm really sorry you're having such a bad time. I had been praying for God to show me the way to healing and when I opened my bible this morning I read in the footnotes of the Life application Study Bible, NIV. Page386. "Without God at the center of their national life, pressure from the outside soon became greater than the power from within, and they were an easy prey for their enemies. If you are letting a desire for recognition, craving for power, or love of money rule your life, you may find yourself besieged by enemies--stress, anxiety, illness, fatigue. Keep God at the center of your life, and you will have the power you need to fight these destroyers."

    When I read this I began crying....How quickly God was answering me. We all forget at times that God is at the center of everything and we must turn to him always. I will pray for you.....that you begin to see a change in your health. Take care, Nancy