Hi, I'm new to this board. The news about XMRV has brought me here. I am excited and hopeful that someone out there still cares enough to find out what is causing this. I had acute sudden onset after the worst "flu" of my life in Jan 1990. There seems to have been a bit of an epidemic just previous to and after my onset. I have always believed this to be viral and that I have permanent brain injury. What I haven't been able to figure out is the respite, relapse nature of the illness. I am always ill, but not always out of commission. I had given up on CFS boards and even med. reviews. This has given me hope but it has also revealed to me the deep sense of disappointment and discouragement I have been feeling (and not acknowledging) about how little support I receive for CFS from my friends and family and even my physician. Even he takes it for granted and just "treats the symptoms." When you are sick for a very long time, it becomes routine for those around you. It never becomes routine for me. I am always, always surprised and dismayed that I am ill yet again, for whatever reason. And I am so tired of trying to track the reasons for relapse. I think once they have a test, a marker, and a better name we will begin to be taken as seriously as some of the more "popular" causes are. We can stop hearing "Yeah, I've been tired this week too," or "Try this new SSRI or SNRI." Anyway, this board seems like a good fit so I joined. I am not consistent about posting in groups. I can disappear when very tired or brain dead. Just wanted to say hi.