I am new to the board but not to FMS. I have been in a major flare up for the last 5 months. Going to PT and even changed doctors in hope of relief. I have degenerative disks and bone spurs also in lower back. Just pretty miserable and desperately want to feel better. I have a 13 year old daughter and I have to be there for her. Is there a comprehensive book somewhere that will tell me all the things I need to do to help myself? I work and want to be able to continue but it is not looking good. All my life I have been the one to care for others now there is so much I cannot do. Today I took my daughter swimming and the pool did not have steps just ladders. I was afraid to go in the pool because I feared, with my back, that I could not get out. The sadness of my lost independence is overwhelming. Without my daughter at home I think I would just give up but her smile makes me go on. The pain just rules my life.