Hi there! I've been dealing with CFS since last December and its really effed everything up and honestly made my life hell. I am only 21...I shouldn't be having such problems. Someone I was very in love with left me due to CFS (before he knew I had it) and now feels sorry and wants me to forgive him for it, but its very hard. At the time I most needed him, he walked out on me saying "I really can't stand how you're just so tired all of the time and I need someone who isn't like that." he found another girl for a little bit but that didn't work out and now feels like a complete a-hole...which he should. My CFS has landed me in the hospital a few times as I believe i have CFIDS, not just CFS. I have been having recurring infections in my lungs and kidneys and like most of you, frequently feel flu-like or run low-grade fevers. I had to take a semester off of school last year after my ex dumped me and I became extremely ill and it was hard for me to do much. I spent much of that time and som of the summer in bed. I'm now back at school and am having much difficulties with people's attitudes towards CFS. I am in a sorority and we had rush recently. I said I would be unable to attend one of the nights because I was very run down and I was told "Well, we're all run down. If you miss, I will fine you $50." Feeling pressured, I skipped two classes and all of my other obligations in order to meet my sorority duties. I tried to talk to the girl about it and was told "I have a very hard time believing there is such a disorder. I think its in your head, you mainly just don't want to be here." I was able to go to limited status with my sorority, but am still required to go to some things. For example, this weekend i am required to go a retreat 2 hours away and I am very nervous that I won't have the energy required to do this. If I don't go, again a fine will be implemented and people wll be angry. Last night was my friend's birthday and she wanted me to attend a concert in a group 30 miles away. I said I couldn't because I needed to rest and would like to stay home and do quiet things. I went out to dinner with her for her birthday and treated her to dinner, but did not attend the concert. When she got home, she told me "You really should have gone." I told her I could not go because I am very run down and I need to be able to meet my obligations the next day as I am here for school and was told "Well, we all had class at 8AM the next day and we went." I just feel like I cannot get through to people sometimes. People are just unwilling to understand. Its better than it was no doubt, but staying away is still a process.