I was recently diagnosed with CFS (1 week ago). I am very happy to have a name associated with what I have been dealing with for the past 3 1/2 years. Before the diagnosis my relationship with my boyfriend was in jeopardy. I was often told I was lazy and never wanted to do anything. I tried explaing to him I was tired but he did not understand. I love the company I work for but my current position (Sr. Systems Analyst) is very demanding. I have been struggling with this job for the past 2 months. My abilty to retain information is not as sharp as it use to be. I find that I write EVERYTHING down. I have missed so many days. My saving grace is that I can work from home. I actually feel a little embarassed to anyone I have CFS. I am 30 years old and I feel as if I did something wrong. I find myself trying to push myself harder when my body is telling me I can't. The other day while at work, I wanted to go out to lunch to grab a salad from a local deli. I sat in the car and could not find the strength to move. After 40 minutes I went back into the job(skipped lunch) just feeling defeated. My doctor told me that antidepressants will help. However I was on Zolft once before (about 3 years ago) and found it higly addictive (in fact, i joined a support group to assist me with the addiction). It took about 8 months for me to finally get off the pills. I just don't know what to do.