Hello! I have had CFS since May of 1989. It seems at this time of the year when there is a lot of particualte matter in the air, that my pain is worse and it feels like I'm going to crash again. I was disabled for two years, in my bed and not able to do much of anything. I am able to work about four hours a day now and because I am a psychotherapist by training this is still possible for me. It is hard to believe I have had this disease for so long and it still seems strange that I have hope deep within my bones that some day I might find myself again. Thom from Utah. I grew up in California but came to Utah for my graduate education.