I deleted my first post, I guess it wasnt the right way to say hello being new to the boards in this community. I have just been so dang depressed with this illness and was a lil desparate. I did go to the referral page though and actually found a md in my area and that is the first light at the end of the tunnel I have glimpsed in a long long time. Took me years to get a proper diagnosis, then cant even get treatment from doc who diagnosed me, been suffering without any treatment for so long, finally go for insurance and find I cant get covered because of diagnoses of FMS that I cant even find treatment for, but went for insurance to get covered cause of new found lump on breast that is scaring crap outta me. So I apologise for my first post, I guess it sounded a lil desparate, in all honesty...it was. Hopefully, I can find the sanctuary of understanding I so desparately need, because noone in my life really understands the complete devistation of my spirit from FMS; and my loved ones are mostly frustrated with my pain, and my frustration of this illness, that has made me a shell of what I once was.