Hi everyone. I'm new to this site, a friend forwarded it to me. I'm still in "the testing phase" but as of now it appears I have both fibro and CFS. It's pretty much confirmed, just a couple more tests to do. I've been in and out of the hospital, had every test done under the sun for over a year now. It wasn't until a month ago when I finally found a dr. who seems to be on the ball. Everybody else pretty much wrote me off with every lame excuse in the book, but a friend of mine guessed it months ago. I just recently turned 41, I'm divorced and have 2 teenage daughters. Because of medical bills and the stress involved with everything, Im in the process of selling my home before I lose it and moving back to IL where my family is. I have no family here other than my daughters, so its just me and them. It's been very difficult to deal with all of this w/o much of a support system or understanding. (Which is another reason why I'm moving back home). I'm super stressed trying to keep things afloat, constantly worrying about losing my job for all the time off work I've missed, and my daughters have had to grow up way faster than they should have, constantly worrying about me. It's safe to say I'm a ball of emotions right now. I've always been the in-charge type, going after a major house / yard project at warp speed, with everything I've got and I didn't stop until it was done no matter how long it took. Now if I even do just a couple of things around the house I'm zapped and that drives me INSANE. Plus I'm like in some sort of fog, even making just stupid mistakes like putting things in the oddest places. Or even stupid writing mistakes and I've always been fanatical about things like spelling or grammar. From a physical standpoint, I'm sooo tired all the time and of course in chronic pain, everywhere. I have a sleep study scheduled in Dec., the drs are certain that there is a sleep disorder involved which from what I understand is associated with all of this. I have high BP, RLS, I just found out I have osteo-arthritis in both hands and wrists, I have Factor V syndrome (which I've known about for about 3 yrs) and I keep getting these insane, major bacterial infections that nobody can explain and a couple other more minor medical ailments. I think I take more pill than an 80 yr old! And aside from feeling like I've been hit by a Mack truck 24/7, comes the whole financial aspect between hospitalizations, tests, bills, and trying to hold on to my job. I was covered under FMLA anyway for the Factor V, plus I was out on short term disability for almost 9 months because I kept landing in the hospital with bacterial infections. I just went back to work in May, so I'm out of time until I work a designated # of hours and I feel my job is in jeopardy, which I have to hold on to until I'm ready to move. Once I move, I'm going to be staying with my sister until I'm financially able to get my own place, but I don't even know how I'm going to be able to start over and not get fired due to attendance unless I find a WAH job. So wow...my first post here and all I've done is unload and whine...lol. I desperately need to meet people who are going through this. I don't know what to expect and I don't know how to deal with going from the full steam ahead type to where I am now. I don't even go anywhere unles I ABSOLUTELY have to. I know I'll feel better once I get relocated and have family support, but even still they aren't going through this, so I don't how to help them understand what I'm going through w/o coming off as a hypochondriac or something. Anyway...this is my situation...I hope to see a light at the end of the tunnel and not have it be another train for a change.