normally i'm one of those "cockeyed, glass half full" optimistic people. but this has really knocked me off my feet. my mom was recently diagnosed with fm and upon reading about her condition I SAW MYSELF-SINCE I WAS A CHILD. now i have an appointment w/the rhuematolo...(spelling?) for myself. as i said, i can see certain symptoms i've had since childhood but they have now joined with others and are having a loud and obnoxious party in my body!! on the one hand it is a relief to know that all the suffering is not in my head but...i know the road ahead will be full of bumps and potholes and detours. being an optomist-i tell myself " at least you have a decent map now, but it still is tough to realize that instead of cruising down the highway of life in a thunderbird convertable i will instead be hitching up two mules to a rickety wagon. oh well, at least the wagon has wheels (once again-the optomist in me). i'm so glad you all are here, it will make the traveling so much easier knowing that there are friends to meet along the way-to laugh and cry with. but the thing that has me really down is that i am starting to see some of the same symptoms in my 16 yr old daughter. the over-protective mother in me is going thru alot of guilt and anxiety knowing that my baby might have this dd as well AND THAT SHE RECEIVED IT FROM ME !! i know it sounds stupid but the thought is really making me want to cry. you folks have been so wonderful--i've been reading this message board for awhile before i got up the nerve to talk myself. thank god for y'all. p.s. i truly believe that fm may be in our systems since birth but traumatic physical/emotional stress makes it rear it's ugly head. i came from a physically abusive marriage, since my divorce i've received no child support in 11 years (the optomist in me says "well, you don't have his money but then you don't have his bullsh*t either"). raising two kids on my own has been tough, but my dad having a stroke and then losing my 17 yr old nephew in a drowning accident was definitely the straw that turned my camel into a fire-breathing dragon.