i went to see a rheumatologist today that i have seen in the past. although my labs are pending (in the past i had elevated c reactive protein and sed rate) the nurse said he will probably diagnose me w/ fibro. im not sure what to do now, since i have a pathetic primary doc ( i have been on 5mg vicodin for at least 2 years solid). my pain is out of control and i am tired of feeling like this. i work full time as an rn (sometimes i cant even get out of the car when i get home) but i have no idea what to do now. i am sick of feeling guilty, have to practically beg for the two tablets of vicodin he gives me a day, and i am just feeling very discouraged and desparate for something to change. i just cannot live like this anymore and i have no idea how much longer my body will let me do my job (i work in a hospital taking care of cardiac/medical patients) when i am off of work, most of the time it takes me at least a day and a half to recover to where i can do normal activities. i have seriously never had depression problems in the past, but i am soooo depressed now. i am on celexa (recently started this) but i dont think it is working yet. does anyone have advice on what i should do? thanks.