On the 19th of April my dog Bessie was put to sleep. She was 18 yrs old and dementia was what got her. She looked after me- stayed with me when i was unwell and was active when i was. She was raised with two cats and they loved each other so much. I have had the three of them cremated- so they are still with me- i've got a 4yr old cat a yr ago from the rspca. I need my furry babies. When family and people left me over the yrs because i was ill- they stayed with me day and night.. i get love and blessings of my cat but i never will be a dog owner again- in the end Bessie's health was affecting me by having to lift her up and down off the bed and supervision to the toilet esp at night- not to mention i had to stop walking her yrs ago. Since Bessie has gone, i just get so tired and dont want to do anything. A friend told me when i made the effort to turn up to her birthday lunch 9 days after i lost bessie. that it was time to get back into things. She now understands some of the effect of fms, but some people dont understand that grief can cause pain and tiredness. Thanks for listening.