Sorry to do this, I usually try to stay upbeat and cheerful. My daughter says I spread a trail of joy everywhere I go. Which is actually what I would like to have people remember about me when I’m gone. I don’t feel very cheerful right now. I’m just really tired of hurting so much. I could really use just one day without pain. Just one. I know that many of you are a lot worse off than I am. I know I should be grateful that I am up and moving no matter how my body feels. My kids are healthy, my husband loves me, I like my job. I really should be grateful and stop having this little pity party, but I just can’t seem to snap out of it. Tears are right on the surface all the time, even just typing this. I just don’t seem to have any control. I’ve looked back at my pain journal and it seems that everyday it has been a little worse and a little worse until today I was actually writing swear words! Not like me at all. The last 4 weeks have been incredibly stressful at work and now we are having another auditor coming in October. One thing right after another here. I guess I just needed to vent. Thank you for understanding and all your support. I will try to bring more joy with me tomorrow. Hugzz Greenbean Think I'll go home and hug my puppy!