Dear FM'ers I have been sick with FM for over 4 years. It took 3 years to obtain a dx. I lost a career that took my whole life to build. I lost my appearance due to weight gain from the meds. I've lost my health. I'm working in the same type of job I had at the beginning of my career 20 years ago. I have a loving spouse, but I know this puts a huge burden on him. Our financial situation has been impacted. With no cure in sight. I am struggling for hope. The depression that comes along with this illness is weighing me down. I'm starting to think life is just to hard to live. I know I would never hurt myself but I am near the end of my rope. Terrible day. On a scale from 1-10, this is a zero. Any thoughts, stories or ideas are welcome. Just need to tell this to someone who understands.