I have worked since I was thirteen, which was forty years ago. Boy, I'm getting old. My dilema is this: I got my self-esteem from work all these years. Now what? Because of my physical limitations, I'm very limited in what I can do. In addition to that, I have a worker's comp claim because I fell in the parking lot at work and it brought on my fibro full on. So, I understand that there are private detectives that follow you around to see if you are faking. As you all know, we can have one good day and do a lot and then have to recover for several days after. It's unpredictable. But one thing for sure is, I can't work anymore. I can't sleep and I'm in pain and I can't function. So, I'm worried that if I have a good day and want to go out there and do something fun, that someone is spying on me and taking pictures. Am I paranoid? How do I find meaning and self worth in my life now?