Im new here. Suffered with a mood disorder and bulemia for many years now. I'mn also a binge drinker..probably a self mediacator. I had a baby five moths ago..got derpressed of course went back on ssri's at about 5 weeks post partum and of course life has been great. I"m a super mom, i love my baby..i work out 4 times a a week. i"ve lost 14 pounds since having my daughter..we are involved in mommy and me groups...life could not be better. BUT at about 4 months post partum SSRI's started doing their thing to my body and I lost my ability to have the BIG OOOO!!! So, I lost my sex drive obviously and i asked me doc to reduce my dose to 25mg. So that went okay and then i did the one day on, one day off and now i've been off my meds for anout 8 days and I'M going crazy. i have at least 2 spazzes a day..i've used laxatives at least 2 or three times in the last 2 weeks and i'm sitting alone right now drinking a bottle of wine. i'm kind of drunk but mainly miserable...sorry to sound so horrible and self destructive/pathetic. it just seem that without meds i'm a mess and with them I'm a half of myself. Im a very sexual person so to bew secually inept is horrific for me...my husband is pretty stressed bc i've been so stressed and unhappy the last 2 weeks. I don't want to go back on the zoloft but i don't want to be a horrible miserable crazy mood swinging bitch. Can a person really be okay and normal if they go off their meds. can mind over matter really prevail? If you are aware of your mood swings do you think you can control them?