I called last week about getting some help through one of the states mental health centers, and they said they would put me on their waiting list. I knew things were bad all around, but this is really bad. I just wonder how many could end up dead in the meantime waiting for that help. I myself are in a fairly bad place. I have days that I dont know if I can keep going, but what worries me is those that are suicidal. My biggest problem is anxiety. I find that I am obsessing over stuff that I dont need to be obsessing about. I have spells where I dont want to do this anymore, and I just want to give up. That is not me, I have always been a fighter, but lately I am really in a bad place. Dont get me wrong, if I get to where I know I am going to do something stupid, I will go to the EMR, but in the meantime I am suffering because there is no one to help me. I just cant believe that things are this bad.